Inside of Me

Inside of me there's a silence
So quiet but yet so loud
It's like a never ending scream
At times I hear nothing
Yet at other times all I can hear is
Bits of yarn
And tangles of thread
Last pages of books I've read
Sometimes I hear whispers of thoughts
Unwelcome in my life
Thoughts that harm me, scare me
The silence, so quiet, yet so loud
Is screaming inside of me
But I get protected from the sound
I close my eyes, my ears, my fists
I stare at the wall, let the tears fall
So much pressure, so much pain
The devil must've kissed me on the cheek
When I was born, said this is the one
Let her hell begin
But it couldn't be that bad
It isn't that bad
The bits of yarn and tangles of thread
Start coming apart at the ends
The frays tickle me and I laugh
I laugh and I scream until I'm empty
Emptier than before