Shock

I thought I would never have to deal with you again
I thought that when you left, you were gone for good
Now that you're back, I don't know what to think
It's like going backwards, not knowing where I'm going
I'm in shock, I really am. This isn't what I expected.
The doctor's had said I was fine. What happened?
Did you come back to spite me? To make me mad?
Two times in one year. Could you be a little less hateful?
I'm in a state of shock. I don't deserve this.