Kiss Me

I kissed him
I kissed him so he'd realise what he had been missing
He must've known it, how could he not?
He must've known that I've loved him
Ever since that day, that first time
I bit his lip and pulled him closer
He was going to be mine
His reaction was rough
Kissing, but not
I kissed harder
He kissed back
But pushed me away
His eyes, questioning
He muttered, "I have to go"
I ran after him
"Can't you see I need you?!"
His sad eyes said no
My small heart broke
That one kiss we shared, I thought I showed him need
He left, saying sorry, he should have never kissed me

Question of the Day

Is it better to give away what you love, or to learn to take it back?

Without A Word

He left without a word
Just walked out with his bags
What could have i done wrong?
I slept with him
I cleaned for him
I cooked for him
I did everything for him
He never complained
Until last night
He blew his top
He said
He said this was all too much
He said
He said he couldnt take it anymore
He said
He said to just leave him alone
And this morning he walked out
Despite doing everything i could
He walked out
With his bags over his shoulder
Without saying a word

a haiku for you

a man dressed in green
saw me dance to music alone
he smiled at my joy

Shock

I thought I would never have to deal with you again
I thought that when you left, you were gone for good
Now that you're back, I don't know what to think
It's like going backwards, not knowing where I'm going
I'm in shock, I really am. This isn't what I expected.
The doctor's had said I was fine. What happened?
Did you come back to spite me? To make me mad?
Two times in one year. Could you be a little less hateful?
I'm in a state of shock. I don't deserve this.

Drop the Bomb

Oh, you'll never know what's coming
And I laugh in my contempt
The bomb I'm going to drop
Is so over your head
You don't know what's coming
And I cringe in my madness
The bomb I'm going to drop
Could bring you some sadness
You can't guess what's coming
And I sigh in my relief
At least it's finally dropping
But you'll be in disbelief

Lock Me Up

Just lock me up now
Before I hurt someone
Just lock me up now
Get it over with and done
I ain't gonna get what I want
Pretty soon I'll lose control
And with you staring at me like that
Well, lemme just say, I'd like to give you a slap
I'm no more stranger than you are
Yet you insist on it being so
So lock me up now
Before I hurt myself
That's all you need to know

Under My Skin

"Alright-y then."
And I realise, that's something he used to say
"Hallelujah."
And I realise, that's something he would play

Being with him, I've picked up his ways
Without him around, I do and say what he would

I've studied him

I know how he frowns when he reads the paper
I know how he smiles when pleased by me

I wonder what he is doing now, and am able to guess quite accurately

I smile, thinking that whether he is with me or not, I'll always have him
He's become a part of me

His lifestyle, the way he is, has gotten under my skin.

A Cry for Help

He grasped at her clothes
At her neck, at her arms
He grasped for his life
Needing to be held down
Wanting to fly high
She let him in
Never a second thought
Just wanting to help
His desperation, his helplessness
Didn't know it'd lead to regret
His one thought was
Help

Mentally Ill

"Studies have shown that brain scans of those infatuated by love display a resemblance to those with a mental illness.

Love creates activity in the same area of the brain where hunger, thirst, and drug cravings create activity. New love, therefore, could possibly be more physical than emotional. Over time, this reaction to love mellows, and different areas of the brain are activated, primarily ones involving long-term commitments. Dr. Andrew Newberg, a neuroscientist, suggests that this reaction to love is so similar to that of drugs because without love, humanity would die out."

Glitter Eyes

Use something sticky as your base for the glitter. There will be inevitable fall-out on your face, so have some wet wipes ready. I used blue sheer-stick and a little water as my base. Then I patted on the glitter. I highlighted the brows with a soft gold. Use liquid eye-liner and mascara to finish the look.

Some Quotes

Some of the greater things in life are unseen thats why you close your eyes when you kiss, cry, or dream
- Anonymous

Playing it safe is the most popular way to fail.
- Elliott Smith

Worry does not take the pain out of tomorrow; it merely takes the joy out of today.
- Anonymous

The quieter you become, the more you can hear.
- Ram Das

The opposite of courage in our society is not cowardice…it is conformity.
- Rollo May

Never pretend to a love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command.
- Alan Watts

One's first love is always perfect until one meets one's second love.
- Elizabeth Aston

Love - a wildly misunderstood although highly desirable malfunction of the heart which weakens the brain, causes eyes to sparkle, cheeks to glow, blood pressure to rise and the lips to pucker.
- Anonymous

Covered In Blood

Covered in blood, he faced himself in the mirror
Hardly recognizing himself, he screamed in agony
What had gotten him into this mess?
Yes, they were after him
And yes, there was a girl
But what happened to the man with the simple life?
Now he was on the run from the government
Cheating on his wife, running from her as well
Covered in blood, he began to weep
Kneeling on the floor
Throwing up
He never meant for his life to be like this
He never meant to end it like this
Taking his razor he killed himself
With one deep cut, up the length of his arm
And another on his neck
Crying, he fell onto the floor
Covered in blood, he died

Like Thread Torn From Cloth

The two lovers were torn apart like thread from cloth sewn together with love
No longer allowed to speak to each other, they each went their own way
She went home to her house on the farm
He went home to his apartment in the city
She cried each night thinking of her past
He took up smoking and drinking
He eventually wasted his life away
She never heard from him, but was stuck on him
She thrashed about at night, unable to sleep
During the day, she stayed home and cooked his favourite meals
She saved him a piece every night until she became insane
She built a man quite like a scarecrow
Slept with him and called him hers
Her hair grew wild and was never clean
One night she awoke and realised her instability
In a fury she took up her "man"
Threw him into the fire
Tore up her clothes
Looking in the mirror, she saw how hideous she had become
She scratched up her face and tore out her hair
Collapsing on the ground and fainting
Next morning she was found dead

Closer To You

Sleep
Morning
Breakfast
Work
Lunch
Dinner
Chores
Sleep
Every passing day brings me closer to you.

Life of a Superstar

Pill- popper
Show- stopper

Blinded by the flashing lights
Caught sneaking out at night

This is what fame is about
Yeah, this is the life of a superstar

Drugs in the back- seat
Baby due next week

Three divorces and a fourth one coming
Didn't plan it this way, gonna keep loving

Time to make an escape
Time to make a run for it
Time to make a change
Time to make a run for it

Here's your last chance
Rehab ain't the best
Here's your last chance
This is your final test

Pill- popper
Show- stopper

Blinded by the flashing lights
Caught sneaking out at night

This is what fame is about
Yeah, this is the life of a superstar

What I Learned From Camping

1. That when it rains like crazy with lightning and thunder that blinds and deafens you, it doesn't matter as long as you have a hand to hold.

2. That when you try to be nice and dance with the shy guys standing in the corners, it doesn't always work out.

2a. George was a very shy guy, with a sunburnt nose and crooked glasses. I picked him because he had red hair. Unfortunately, his personality was not as bright and interesting as his hair was.

3. That when wearing a bikini, MAKE SURE IT IS TIED ON SECURELY, or else your nephew just might take off your top in front of everyone in the pool.

4. That taking your puppy into the tent and leaving her there might mean sleeping in poop-ified sleeping bags.

5. That your family counts as your best group of friends in the world. In the end, all you'll have is your family. Trust them and treat them like you treat your best friend.

6. That dads can be very entertaining.

6a. "Wiffle ball: pronounced wiff-a-ball. A game where you use a ball with holes in it so you are able to stick in some weed. When the ball comes by, you wiff it!"

7. That mothers can be very entertaining.

7a. "LAST NIGHT WAS TERRIBLE. I WAS UP ON MY KNEES PRAYING THE WHOLE TIME FOR THE STORM TO PASS."

8. That no matter how much bug spray you might have sprayed on, the bugs are actually completely immune to it. They will bite you a million and one times over.

9. That a Chorkie can swallow chicken faster than you can say it's name.

10. That despite the fact you were not looking forward to camping, the experience is always great.

Dream

He knocked on the front door.
Surprise!
She never expected him.
She opened the screen and let him in.
Hi, how are you doing?
I'm doing fine, yourself?
Oh you know, same old, same old.
So what brings you around here?
You.
Me?
Yes, you.
This answer was the last thing she expected
And the first thing she prayed for every night.
They kissed in the brilliant morning sun.

Then she woke up.

NEW LINK

http://www.bash.org/?151227

A Family and Two Lovers

Walking along the beach
You see families making castles
You see lovers making love
You see birds flying above
The water is at high tide
The sky is cloudless
But somehow your mind is clouded
With thoughts that you never knew could exist
And why they're there, you don't know
They're all about him
You want him to walk along the beach with you
To see the families and the lovers
To be a family and two lovers

I want you to be special

I hope you're as good as they say
As good as your word
You sound so nice
So comforting and gentle
I hope you can make me smile
And laugh to no end
Care for me like no one else has
Share your food with me
I hope you're not a fool
Who falls in love with any girl
Cuz I like to think I'm special
And I want to think you're special, too

Hello Ex-Boyfriend

Hello ex-boyfriend
And how are you today?
I heard you're not doing too well
Yeah, and I've got news for you
I've more than moved on
I've gotten over you
Don't doubt me now
I have a new lover
And he is better than you ever could be to me
I hope you get over your troubles
I'll still be here for you
Just don't bother me with accusations
They aren't worth your time
For you have yours and I have mine

Chorkie!!

New Make-Up Look

Colours used: Blue sheer stick for primer, orange up to the crease, brown up to the eyebrow, and blue at the crease line.

Never Gonna Happen

How many times have you woke up cryin' for the person you can't have?
How many times have you wound up lyin' so you could keep both halves?
It seems so hard to let go, it's just so hard, you feel so low.
And you're sure he's the one for you, and you keep on saying "soon."
But it ain't never gonna happen, no it ain't never comin' true.

The End to Depression?

When your vision is a blurry mess
When your head is pounding with stress
And you're crying, crying
For a reason you don't know

When all you want to do is sit around
When all the only thing you feel is drown'd
And you're fighting, fighting
For a reason you don't know

It's time for a change
Something new to do
Someone new to comfort you
It's time to start thinking straight
Change your slow walk to a happy gait

It's hard, it's hard
But it's better than nothing
It's tough, it's tough
But life is rough

So start trying, stop crying
This is the end, so stop fighting

My life.

"You can latch on if you want, but you're just gonna fall off."

Story of my life.

I found this to be funny.