Dear Shrink 2

Dear Shrink,

I've been in overall a good mood! Have a boyfriend, with whom I think things are going really well. Taking it slow. Just the way I like it.

School is coming up. Not stressing about it. Gonna try to go with the flow this year... even though I have no idea where I am going yet. That's okay. It'll get figured out somehow.

I got some new music! A Fine Frenzy, Arctic Monkeys, and Company of Thieves. They're all very good.

There IS one thing marring my beautiful ray of happiness. My STUPID doctor thinks that I can't ready body language or something. I dunno. It bothers me, because maybe he's right. He says that the reason I get nervous easily is because I don't understand what's going on around me. I dunno how I feel about that.

Much Love,
Ava

Making Plans

Making plans for the future
Without knowing if there is one
Is scary and yet thrilling
To be infatuated is like
Being drugged up on
Laughing gas, laughing
The whole time
Knowing it might end
Yet hoping it won't ever
And sometimes you get down
'Cause you know there always is an end.

Until the End

As we laid upon his bed
With his arms around me
I turned to look at him
And he was smiling
I asked what he was thinking of
He said 'You, of course'
And I kissed him gently
And he kissed back
Until we fell asleep
In his arms, I'd like to stay
Forever or until the end
With his hand in my hand
With his lips on mine

Hanging On

I'm hanging on tight
To everything we've got
I'm gonna fill in these cracks
With a glue stronger than blood

I'm hanging on tight
And I'm not letting go
If you feel like crying
Just let the tears flow

I'm hanging on tight
So, babe, don't worry
I'll be here for you
There's no hurry

I'm hanging on tight
We'll be all right
You just hang on tight, too.

A Song For You

I'm a little nervous
Yeah I'm a little scared
Don't know how to impress
Don't know what to wear

Oh I'm a little excited
Yeah I'm a little in love
Don't know how this started
Guess I'm circling all of the above

Cuz I want this to last
Yeah and I hope it can
If we try hard our love
Cannot die
No it cannot die

Sometimes I get frightened
But it wont be getting in the way
Sometimes I am shortsighted
And do silly things that you don't like

But in the end it’s all okay
Cuz I know at the end of the day
You’re still mine
Yeah you’re still mine

Thank You, Cupid

Cupid finally aimed his bow
Into someone I love so
And when he looks into my eyes
I can feel mine shine
My hands in his
My trust in him
Like no other boy
He's devoted to me
And I say thank you, Cupid
For shooting your arrow
Into my lover's heart
For me!*

*Reference to Chris Walla's song, Cupid

CUTENESS

Hear Me Cry

Heart-wrenching sobs coming from my throat
Hot salty tears running down my cheeks
As I stare at you in bewilderment
And you stare at me in fear
No one would have guessed that this would come true
What have you done, I'm screaming in your ear
And the blood, and the wet, they're there on the bed
And you and I can't get out of each others heads
I'm small and scared and feeling meek
And you're tall and looming as you start to speak
I'm sorry, I'm sorry, we were never meant to be
I'm sobbing, I'm sobbing, look what you did to me

Sleep

How did you sleep last night?
With my eyes closed
And indeed I did
And I dreamt about the sweetest things
Like sugar- plum fairies and
Trinkets and toys and
Love and forgiveness and
Even about boys
How did I sleep last night, you ask?
With my eyes closed
I dreamt about you
And how happy we could be
I dreamt about us, at noon, drinking tea
I dreamt how we could dance and sing
And be happy together, for the rest of our lives
I dreamt that our love would never die
How did I sleep last night?
With my eyes closed
And you by my side

I Wish

Sometimes I wish
I wasn't so shy
How can I be so outgoing
When there are others nearby?
But catch me alone
And the cat has my tongue
Making me feel inexperienced and young
Sometimes I wish
I wasn't so shy
But alas, I cannot change overnight

Plan Gone Awry

I wanted to meet you and hang out
I wanted to be your friend
I hope we are friends now
But when I was with you
I got this crush feeling
That I haven't had in while
And the truth is you make me smile
Like no one has done in a long time
And so I didn't want to leave
I'd rather have kissed you instead

INFLATABLE MANNEQUINS

http://www.inflatablemannequins.com/items/Inflatable-Mannequins/Female-Mannequins/list.htm

what is this new bizzare and enchanting way to have a mannequin for cheap!? OMG. soo interesting.

Krysis

The Next Big Thing

Krysis

As a young kid, Johann "Krysis" Gallo went through a lot. His parents got divorced and his mom was always crying. He felt he had no where to turn to. One day he turned on his television and saw Lil Wayne and Genuwine. From that moment forward, he knew he had to rap. It became his addiction. He first started out by writing poems, but then he started going into lyrics. Krysis writes about things that go on in the world, stuff that he's going through, and things that make him, and hopefully, you, think. He wants to share his music with the world. He has been inspired by many rappers, and thinks that if they can do it, so can he.

To listen to Krysis' music please click here and suscribe!

Pretending

He was kissing her with a passion
Even though this was the first time he'd seen her in years
Her body, small and smooth was just enough
To pretend she was someone else
Yes, he missed her
Quite a lot, he never quite got over her
And with this girl he could pretend
That he was back with her again

Keep You Near (Mercy)

I am afraid because we never talk
I am afraid because you're never here
And if I have to keep flipping through pictures to keep you near,
What's my love worth to you?
All the same, you deserve better than me
For I am sick with sorrow that I can't please you
I am afraid that you think me too much trouble
I am afraid that it may be 40 - 60
Or worse, 60 - 40
All I can do is keep flipping through pictures of you to keep you near.

Birthday Wish List

So my birthday is coming up and some of you may wonder what I could possibly want. Well, here we go:

1. Money is always the best way to go.
2. Nikon D90
3. A mannequin of some sort. Hopefully bendable. I like mannequins.
4. Photoshop Elements
5. A thought on number 3, maybe I'd like this: http://www.roxydisplayinc.com/webpage/bodyforms/female/black/f02sleg-bs04.html hmmm...
6. skull candy head phones. nice ones.


that's about it. I love hoodies.. I love hugs.. I love random artsy things.

Awkward

Excited for some fun
He waited on the doorstep for her to pick him up
He'd be going to her house to be with her
But when he got there
It seemed like the whole family was waiting for him
And he felt so awkward
He almost lost his cool
But apparently he didn't
'Cause he could still be a really good kisser

New Make Up Look

Inspired by fantasy, I suppose..

Strangers Making Love

We were just two strangers making love
Just two people in a world filled with people
Does our love count?
We didn't talk
We were just two strangers making love
In a bed too big for one
Just add another figure
Do the math, it equals love
Kissing, kissing
And ending up sore
We were just two strangers making love
No less, no more

Feelings

Feeling a little guilty
Feeling a little scared
It's not that I don't want you
It's that I don't want to hurt you

Feeling a little shameful
Feeling a little down
It's not that I don't care
I just can't stand to see you frown

Feeling a little glum
Feeling a little blue
I guess it's not your fault
I don't know what to do

Feeling a little frozen
Feeling a little cold
Your touch makes me shiver
I'm like a piece of ice around you

So shape me with your pick
Hurt me with your tools
I don't care
As long as you're happy
I'm here for you